Friday, February 1, 2008

What About What I Want?

I have such a hard time telling people 'no.' I will always say 'yes' even if it really is not what I want to do or something that I have time to do. I am tired of it! I want to do what I want to do! And I did this week...
I am taking 7 classes this semester that is 16 credits, and that along with work, homework, household chores, and taking care of Garrett can get pretty overwhelming! Well, there is only one class that I am taking this semester that I didn't particularly like. I had it twice a week at 8:00 AM. Not liking my first class in the morning makes it REALLY hard to wake up! haha.
Anyways, to top it all off I am not even required to take this class for my major, I was just taking it to fill up an elective spot.
Anyways, yesterday was the last day to drop a class and I thought about it long and hard and was so conflicted. My inner most heart wanted to drop the class, but I felt bad because I was already put into a small group for that class and I didn't want to let them down or make it hard for them to find a new member of their group.
Finally, I just said to myslef, 'this is my life! And I am going to do what I want!' And I did. I dropped the class yesterday and it felt SO good!
I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. And to top that off everything ended up working out. I contacted the proffesor to let him know that I was dropping the course and talked to one of my group members and they were both so understanding about it! I am just so happy that for once I looked out for myslef and did what I wanted to! :) I paid off!


Dionna said...

Good for you, Angela. I tend to be this way too. I do so many "should's." It's hard to balance doing things in your best interests without being totally selfish all of the time. But it sounds like this was a good move for you.
Been thinking of you a lot this week and praying. How is "everything?"

Alisha Beverly said...

I do the same thing! ALL THE TIME! No matter how many times I tell myself I'll change, it never happens. I am really glad you stood up for yourself. Way to go!

Shannon said...

You are just like your mama. You HAVE to do what feels right in your heart. I lived way too much of my life making everyone else happy....and me being miserable. Sometimes we should set aside our needs for others. But other times you just know in your heart that you need to do what is right for you. Love you.

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